Sunday, January 24, 2010

Death of a coworker

David LeBlanc, a 46 year old coworker from Western National Life Insurance had a heart attack and died last night, January 23, 2010. I "double jacked" with David my first five days at the call center. I got to know him for a brief time and attempted to share Christ with him twice. The second time he made it clear to me that he didn't want to have any discussion about Christ or God or the like. I accepted this and continued to befriend him hoping that eventually he could look to me when he had the need. David recently buried his mother and was in the middle of a divorce. Both circumstance though did seem to bring him a bit more peace and pleasantness than he had ever expressed. He had a positive out look on his future even though he was dreading entering the dating world, or so he told me.

Anyway, all that is to say this. I am undone by his death. I know where the man said he stood with God. I have no one I can express my sympathies to because I did not know his family at all. I feel like grieving and crying and yet I cannot. I will not say the empty words of "At least he in a better place" or "Rest in Peace" for I have no evidence in his life to tell me that either of two statements are true. I am not trying to play God and damn him to hell. I am only speaking the truth that is available to me based upon what little I know of my God and what little I knew of David.

And I don't know how to respond to those people who say those things. I know that there is hidden in there an opportunity to share the truth with those people but it feels forceful and judgmental.

I know God will continue to be gracious and good to me as I struggle through to understand how to bring His truth, His way, His life to this situation. I will seek Him in prayer, in person and in Scripture to see and hear what He needs from me.

Any thoughts?

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