Just for today

Tonight, in Oasis, our leader, Doyle, asked us to really open ourselves up to God and see in what area He is not sitting on the throne as King. I usually find this difficult to do because I feel like being a houseparent consumes my life and I am a houseparent because that is what God has called me to be so I am serving Him with my life (wow! putting that down in writing sounds extremely holier than thou and extremely conceited). So anyway, I really emptied myself to God to show me what Doyle was asking for and, shockingly, He did. There is a song that we sing that I think is titled "Just For Today." The chorus has the following stanza repeated 2x: "May my steps be worship, may my thoughts be praise, may my words bring honor to your name." I think that coupled with our minister's thoughts for the day (How To Serve God Without Pleasing Him-to read this thought process click on Brian's Blog link on the right) really hit me, but not in that self-defeating, guilty sort of way that things often hit me. It was more that thought of "If I could really live this song every day, then my all consuming life of houseparenting wouldn't be so stressful, draining and would look a lot more like God wants it to." I think, maybe, I caught a glimpse of that peace that passes all understanding. And I desperately want more than a glimpse of it now! So, Brian, thank you for softening the soil today with your message on Truer and Doyle, thank you for inviting me to leave the throne. And Father, thank you for allowing me to serve you today. Please, help me to do it better tomorrow.